Thankful.

This past week has been rough. And by rough I mean that i have been going 90 to nothing and back... only to repeat the cycle every few minutes. Life is not going to be perfect. I wasn't promised that. However, I was promised that I would never be alone.

I had promised myself that I would never tell anyone if had to take measures to combat the depression again. As I thought about it, though, I realized that I have been given an amazing support group that can drive me around, lift me up, and pray for me when things are rough. Thank my Lord for them!

I hope and pray that I can hand over my weaknesses to Jesus and that he can make something of them. I'm told that he can... but sometimes I look inward at myself and say "He's gonna HAVE to be able to do everything in order to make something of this." We talk of our hearts being broken in two. I wish there were only 2 pieces of my heart. It would be easier to heal.
Praise Him for his never ending love! It is amazing. It is awesome. It is incomprehensible! I never want to let it go.

He has provided for me in every possible way... and I wish there was more that I could give him. More than what I have inside, anyway.

Apparently, I'm more Christian than my father.

You scored as Christianity. Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian. Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, but as God in human form. The Holy Trinity is the concept that God takes three forms: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost (sometimes called Holy Spirit). Jesus taught the idea of instead of seeking revenge, one should love his or her neighbors and enemies. Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross to save humankind and forgive people's sins. Christianity 88% Judaism 50% Buddhism 38% Islam 25% Hinduism 25% agnosticism 8% Paganism 8% atheism 0% Satanism 0% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

See my father's score here.

My muse strikes.

It seems to me that my muse strikes at the most inconvenient times. I have so much to do- things that I don't want to do- but all I want to do is write my heart out. And yet when I begin, i get a few sentences into it and realize that I don't have the words to describe my heart. Just some gibberish that means something to me and no one else.

Gibberish... Sometimes it doesn't mean anything to me and is just an outpouring of something greater. And yet- it isn't gibberish. It's more. It's an unknown language that only God knows. I wish that I could know what it was.
And even without knowing i'm still told "No, you cannot be a missionary with us." There are other ways to go.

I don't know what I'm meant to do. I wish I did.

My Theological Worldview

First seen from my father.

You scored as Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan. You are an evangelical in the Wesleyan tradition. You believe that God's grace enables you to choose to believe in him, even though you yourself are totally depraved. The gift of the Holy Spirit gives you assurance of your salvation, and he also enables you to live the life of obedience to which God has called us. You are influenced heavly by John Wesley and the Methodists. Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan 79% Charismatic/Pentecostal 57% Emergent/Postmodern 54% Reformed Evangelical 54% Fundamentalist 54% Neo orthodox 50% Classical Liberal 36% Modern Liberal 21% Roman Catholic 18% What's your theological worldview? created with QuizFarm.com